Your address hangs on my wall
And I’ve got nothing at all
To remember you by
But I’ve been waiting for days on end
For you to call
And I never got to say good-bye
To you, my friend

And I swear that I can feel you
Creeping underneath my skin
And it feels like Heaven to me, sometimes
But I don’t understand
Why you just can’t let me in
And I close my eyes and just let it all fall in line

And we could wait a while
Let everything have it’s way
Crack a secret, subtle smile
And everything will be OK
But I promise you that I won’t leave you here
I couldn’t do that to myself
And not again, not with you, my friend

And I swear that I can feel you
Creeping underneath my skin
And it feels like Heaven to me, sometimes
But I don’t understand
Why you just can’t let me in
And I close my eyes and just let it all fall in line

And just let it all
Let it all fall in line
And just let it all
Let it all fall in line
And just let it all
Let it all fall in line

Creative - Wellness - Community

During the course of my inner journey over the years I have spent thousands of dollars on personal and spiritual development courses trying to find out who I am and what is my life’s purpose.  They have all been beneficial in helping me gain more self knowledge and a deeper understanding of others however, what I came to experience was after the hype and initial euphoria of attending these events had worn off, nothing had greatly changed in my outer world, meaning nothing had shifted greatly within.  What I have come to learn over the last few months is that it has been my deeper understanding of the universal energies, synchronistic events whereby my path has crossed with a particular individual at just the right time, and simple techniques such as meditation that have lead to the most profound and lasting inner transformations.   Not to mention great leaps of faith and persistence in seeking my truth!

There is today an ever present over-saturated market full of healers, self help gurus, personal development programs and organizations.  Personal and spiritual development has become a multi-billion dollar business.  Unfortunately there are quite a few individuals using the “healing” industry as a way of exploiting those seeking help in understanding who they really are and finding peace and purpose in their lives.  I entered the personal development industry thinking I could make a difference.  It wasn’t long before my perspective and passion for helping others became blinded by my material concerns as I too got caught up in the hype and the latest money making spinner.  It seemed to happen without me realising it however it wasn’t too long before the cracks started to appear, my life took an extreme turn – all part of the divine plan!  Looking back at this dark period in my life I now see it as all so very perfect and I’m ever so grateful.  It was well and truly time for the old self and the old ways to leave me and to begin a new chapter in a very new reality.  It forced me into taking risks and making choices for myself that many disapproved of.  I had to let go of the past, certain people and old ways of being.  During this time I came to experience that when I began to connect with my true authentic self, my core issues seemed to fall away.  I have come through the other side with more clarity, centeredness and purpose.  My life has become a lot simpler, more loving, more creative and my desire to be of service to humanity has gained momentum – BIG TIME!

I do not believe, I know, that it is not necessary to spend thousands of dollars on courses and therapies that can sometimes keep you on a treadmill of dealing with “your issues” for years!  In fact after reaching a certain level of understanding or “higher vibration”, the emotional healing and reliving past events time and time again only seemed to take me right back to a space where I no longer belonged.  It was more detrimental than beneficial.  We humans make much too bigger deal about being what we think are victims.  Knowledge is certain; the search for personal knowledge is a hazardous one and nobody can guarantee it.  Insecurity and accepting the challenge of the unknown is the only way to grow.  We were not put on this earth to be fixed for we are not broken.  All we need do is connect to our inner world, to our hearts, and to each other -  this is where real transformation and adventure begin.  As a friend of mine from overseas shared with me the other day “I too spent thousands before I came to realise only I, with willingness to face the fear and step into the fire, could help myself open my heart and embrace each moment with joy”.

Over the years travelling the course of my own personal inner adventure, I have come to realise that the right people tend to cross our path at just the right time to support us in our next step in our life’s sometimes uphill climb.  Think back to when you really desired a change in your life, or wanted to know what path to take next.  Hasn’t there always been somebody who inspired the next turn?  It can be a chance meeting, a word heard that seems to shout out across a crowded room, a book that falls from the shelf, or indeed somebody’s shared story which inspired you to make a courageous decision that dramatically changed the course of your life forever.   You know it means something, you sense it, you can feel it – this is your intuition, your all knowing self whispering to you from the depth of your being.

We all carry within us unique gifts and talents to be shared.  My intention at Inner Adventures is to share with you stories of those who have crossed my path, those who have played an integral part in assisting me on my life’s journey.  It is my hope that by sharing their stories, their unique gifts and talents, how they got to do what they do, that they may inspire you to take a leap into the unknown and experience your own inner adventure.  Sometimes all it takes is a little assistance from someone to help give us the courage to take the next step.  It is all within us, we all know who we are, we just need a little guidance at times to take us there.

At Inner Adventures we believe there is nothing that makes people so generous, joyful, lively, bold and compassionate, so indifferent to fighting and the accumulation of material wealth than those who use their creative power with right intent.  Those who have been invited to share their stories with you at Inner Adventures are all personally known to me, either through their healing service, a business association or through friendship and the friends they invite are known to them in the same way and so on and so on.  A community connected by One and reaching out to Oneness.

Life is to be lived and shared with JOY, ENTHUSIASM, PASSION, FUN and of course ADVENTURE! It is our true nature.  When we are truly in a spirit of adventure we are moving just like a child, full of trust, drawn by our sense of wonder into the unknown.  Inner Adventures really has nothing to do with plans and maps, programs and organisations.  Your journey through life does not need to be a serious and sad, long and expensive uphill battle trudging through your past to deal with today.  Whenever we move into the new and unknown with the trusting spirit of a child, innocent, open and vulnerable, the smallest things in life can become the greatest adventures and bring profound joy.

Everybody’s journey is different and unique.  What might work for one person may not work for another.  At Inner Adventures you will read stories from a wide cross section of people from all walks of life and all corners of the globe.  It is our intention to assist you in finding your purpose, to listen to YOUR heart and intuition and feel whose story has inspired you to take an inner adventure of your own toward your true and beautiful self.

The universal energies are so supportive of change at this unique time in history.  The time most definitely is NOW!  Sometimes all it takes is a little courage and a step into the unknown to propel you forward in ways you could never imagine.   Inner Adventures is here to assist you in finding your way to your purpose and to living your life with a spring in your step, a smile on your face and adventure in your heart by connecting you to those who are here to connect to YOU, with pure intent.

We encourage you to take the first step right now, get out of the mind, enter your heart and embrace an Inner Adventure today!

Justine Wilson – Founder, Inner Adventures

May 29, 1997 was a sad day.  It was the day Jeff Buckley, while awaiting the arrival of his band from New York, drowned, during a spontaneous evening swim—fully clothed—in the Wolf River, Memphis, Tennessee.

I was first introduced to Jeff’s music via his dadTim Buckley, whose album my boyfriend owned.  He also died young, aged 28.   Jeff’s album “Grace” takes me back to that year – 1997.  A year of endings.

I was living in London at the time and I was desperately missing my boyfriend, having decided to break up and go travelling.  I played “Grace” over and over and over again for months - really loud!  I was love sick and home sick but also on a huge adventure.  There was a lot going on that year.

A few weeks prior to arriving in London I was travelling through Greece when I learned from a taxi driver that Princess Di had died in a car accident in Paris.  Apparently she had been in Greece just two weeks prior.  Arriving in London was depressing.  I was met by a country in deep mourning.   A few weeks later my boyfriend’s best mate had died after taking  an accidental overdose and it was also the year that Michael Hutchence from INXS  was to commit suicide (apparently) in a hotel room in Sydney.  A sad time for many.

Jeff’s music always takes me back to that time; it’s funny how music can do that.   Feels like it was just yesterday.  I ended up marrying the guy I was pining for and we had two beautiful children.  It wasn’t to last, however when I think back to this period in my life I remember it with a smile.   I was really living life large, exploring, travelling and indeed growing.  It was such a strange time in the world.  Being  overseas, away from friends and family and the man that I loved  was really difficult and at times I wondered how I would get through it all.  Looking back, everything, as it inevitably does, turned out perfectly.

Thank you Jeff Buckley; for the memories, the tragedy, the yearning, the angst, the fun, the adventure and of course “GRACE”!

Well I would have to pick the coldest day in June in 27 years to head out into the city of Sydney.  I’m struggling to find small change for my bus fare to the local train station as my fingers are nearly snapped frozen.  Brrrrrrr!  It has been some 15 years since I have lived in mighty Sydney, a city of lights, noise, the hustle and bustle and I’m so very excited to be here, albeit a tad friggin’ freezing!   I have this eagerness and nervous anticipation as to what this particular part of my life’s journey will bring.  Much like my feeling when I arrived in Byron Bay, there is more to being here than I fully understand at this point. 

I rub my hands together and blow my warm breath into them in the hope that the feeling sensation may return soon. Are there not any bloody heaters on this bus?  I have been spoilt.  These last few months I have had the luxury of  travelling to work by car with its perfect heating on the 40 minute journey to my job in Northern NSW!  What a contrast in scenery, I think to myself.  The drive north was an absolute pleasure; huge trees lined the highway, glorious mountains were at every turn, lush, green, expansive land stretched on forever and the sky appeared to have no ending.  I’m surprised to notice that my response to what I am seeing as I cross the Harbour Bridge is no different .  It’s just as beautiful, just in a very different way.

My toes are half frozen and I’m sure I’m walking with a waddle of some sort.  I’ve opted for the sensible shoe as opposed to the high heel that most women here seem to be wearing.  Am I getting old, or am I just smarter?  The train trip is sheer joy, the sun is shining and I’m off to my first interview – eager as a beaver to get stuck into some work after what feels like a good six months focussed on the “inside job” – a story for another time, we will most definitely tackle that one in a later blog. 

As I near Sydney Harbour and gaze out toward the Opera House and the glorious city a smile creeps onto my cold face … I’m tingling from head to toe.  Not because it’s cold but because I know this is definitely where I am meant to be right now. 

After shooting the breeze over coffee with my journalist friend before my next interview, I am drawn towards Hyde Park, anywhere I can grab the sun to warm me a little.  It is here that memories come flooding back and flashes of “the good times” are like moving pictures in my mind.  It’s here that I enter the lobby of The Sheraton on the Park, a place that holds many special moments, including my chance encounter with Eckhart Tolle.  Time to reminisce, and a pit stop to use the ladies as I’ve consumed two heart warming coffees already this morning.  

It was a Friday in March last year and I was on top of the world!  I was in love, involved in a business that I was extremely passionate about and I had met the most wonderful bunch of people from all corners of the globe.  We were all converging at the Sheraton to attend our business conference.  “Can things get any better?” I thought to myself.  And what do you attract when you are feeling on top of the world? – amazing synchronistic events that’s what!  As I’m waiting at the lift well for my boyfriend at the time, suddenly the lift door opens and out steps the one and only -Eckhart Tolle!  To my surprise there is absolutely no one else around, not a soul, just me and Eckhart.  So I look at him and move ever so naturally toward him – “Oh Eckhart!  What are you doing here?”, as if he’s my long lost uncle that I haven’t seen since I was a tiny tot!  He was so humble and gracious.  He came right up to me and offered his hand.  He explained that he was here for an appearance at the Entertainment Centre.  He then proceeded to ask me, in his soft voice my name and what was I doing here.  I explained that I was attending a personal development conference but felt like skipping it entirely to hang out with him.  He listened intently to me while I prattled on, at the same time thinking to myself “do I get the camera out now?”  It was a magic moment and I didn’t want to spoil it so I just enjoyed the space we shared for that time and then it was time for Eckhart to depart.  He leaned toward me and gave me a big warm embrace and said how lovely it was to meet me.  Oh man, at that point I forgot all about my boyfriend and I was floating!  That man has had a monumental impact on my life – I mean HUGE!  His books are best sellers, his philosophy about living in the now has changed so many lives and opened doors for many into the world of the conscious mind.  Yes, I was awe struck – it certainly made my day, in fact it made my whole year! 

So I hung out in the foyer of the Sheraton on the Park for some time, reminiscing about that time in my life – me and Eckhart, being madly in love, meeting amazing people from all walks of life, and living what felt like a dream – and it all took place in this gorgeous city of Sydney!   A perfect day full of memories, of hope for the future and a chance meeting with Eckhart Tolle that reminded me that when we are fully living in the present moment and full of joy in our hearts  – anything is possible!

Thank you blessed Sydney, I am looking forward to being a part of you and enjoying what you have in store for me over the coming months.

What an amazing adventure I have been on these last few months in Byron Bay.  Gratitude fills my heart when I think of all the wonderful connections I have made and the incredible inner transformation and healing that has taken place for me.  I’ve just returned from a walk up to the lighthouse, watching the sunset over Mt Warning and watching the dolphins frolic off the headland.  This place is truly magic. 

I arrived here in February 2010, immediately after my 10 day silent retreat in the Blue Mountains.  After a brief telephone connection with a woman from Byron Bay who sold me a water alkalizer back in August 2009, I took the chance that perhaps she may be able to assist me in finding work and a place to live as I had no contacts in Byron except her.  That beautiful woman turned out to be THE connection that would send me on a speedy inner journey as soon as I hit Byron Soil.  Kaz welcomed me into her home and into her life with warm, nurturing, open arms.

Of course when one comes to Byron Bay it’s difficult not to be struck by the intense energy here.  It is most certainly a vortex like no other.  I felt it immediately and so my journey to deep healing and transformation began in earnest.  Not being afraid of stepping into the void and going as far as I can go, I dived in with both feet and was open to everything.  I had much to learn about trust, fear and letting go of the past over the coming months. 

To say this was an easy move would not be entirely accurate.   All I remember really knowing was that I was exactly where I had to be.  That lessened the angst of leaving my children as I knew it was an important step, one that would change the course of my life forever.  It certainly helped knowing they were being wonderfully cared for by their daddy.

Over the course of the coming months, as anyone would know when you face your “stuff”- all was to surface.  You cannot live here without your shit coming up – I would say it is impossible.  The place has a reputation for it.  Not a day passed without me learning something very new or having to face something.  When you take yourself away from an environment that you felt safe in, such as your home with its many comforts and a city you know like the back of your hand, no job to go to, leaving my  children, yeah, it was a big move.  I was dealing with so much all at once.  I had sold most of my possessions back in Newcastle, packed up my car full of clothes, laptop, my guitar, CD’s and some of my favourite books and I was off!

Not to say that my time in Byron has been all about healing and getting into the nitty gritty deep stuff of course.  I am a girl who likes to have fun so many FUN times were had.  Byron has THE best live music scene.  I love that about this place.  Every weekend you can find a mix of genres that will satisfy the hungriest of music enthusiasts.  I have been utterly spoilt as music is one of my passions.  I have not danced this hard in years, like truly nobody was watching.  Such a freedom to be who you are here, express yourself fully – I love that about Bryon.   

What came in time, amongst the lessons and the learning and the two steps forward and a more aware 3 steps back, was a slow moving toward a love and acceptance of myself that has been a very long time coming.  I had chosen this path for a reason and I was ready and open to learn!  I have been fortunate enough, in fact I would class myself as being very LUCKY indeed, to have attracted the most incredible souls into my life, in particular starting over a year ago.  Bloody hard as it was at times, I feel extremely grateful for those connections who were PARAMOUNT in bringing me to this joyous point in my life.

It has now come for me to depart Byron Bay.  I had no idea it was going to end this quickly however the events of the last month in particular have made me realise how fast the universal energies are moving right now and we are all being propelled forward in ways that will surprise many. 

I wanted to take this opportunity to send a very warm, heartfelt expression of my gratitude to those gorgeous souls I met during my time in Byron.  They have all uniquely touched my life in incredible ways.  To my beautiful flatmates Kaz and Juanita – you made it a joy to come home every day.  You made me feel like family and I love you both to bits.  Kaz we were definitely mirrors for each other and to that I am truly grateful, even if it was tough at times, it certainly helped me see what I needed to see.  To my beautiful  soul brother David whose didgeridoo healing left me feeling like I was catapulted through to another dimension, a profound experience that has affected me greatly and to which I am still feeling the effects.  To Sarah whose friendship recently has been a gift from heaven.  Your beauty inside and out is inspiring.  I feel so understood by you…thank you sister.  To Colleen who lead me through a past life journey which shed an amazing light on a situation connected to my family.  She also welcomed me into her home and I was fortunate to spend time with her dog Vada, the love of her life who has recently passed away at the age of 16, I’m honoured.  To Graham, my Blues Fest compardre, my music and dance partner extraordinaire – you are a treasure, your heart is as big the world and geez, you make me laugh!  To Vicki for introducing me to Bikram Yoga, thank you sister – that was hard yakka!  To Donna and Scotty, the support you have given me in the last month has been a blessing, it was all so very timely and perfect, I’m ever so grateful and totally trust that we will always be provided for when the TIMING is right, this was evident by meeting you guys.  To Liza and Ange, working with you gals has been an absolute ball!  I have not laughed so much in a very very long time.  You helped me see my purpose and that it’s been with me all this time and I never truly noticed until meeting you both - I miss you dearly sisters!!!  To Bill, Liz, Lono, Greg, Justine, Gonda, Lois and Neil, I have learnt so much about myself through my connection with you all – it was truly what my soul needed and I’m so happy that I listened to my heart and had the courage to do what I did.  In particular, thank you Kaz for understanding what it is to be a mother and supporting me from the very beginning.

When Eckhart Tolle talks about the New Earth and Karen Bishop talks about Stepping into a New Reality, it is only now that this has truly made sense to me.  I have released some very old blocks that were creating a very confused outer world for me.  I feel so free of those chains, that conditioning.  I see life through very different eyes and I am now looking forward to the journey ahead with trust and grace, and with a deeper understanding of who I truly am. 

A huge thank you to my family, in particular Mark, Jenny, Chloe and Georgia for being so supportive when a lot of people were judging me for my choices.  I felt so loved by you all.  Jen, I will miss your roast dinners and our girlie chats – I Love You xx

To my beautiful friends Lara, Tinkerbelle and Mr T, with whom I shared an amazing time last year and who helped me step onto this amazing new path.  You will all be forever in my heart and I cherish the memories we made together.  I wouldn’t be where I am today without crossing paths with your souls.  People come into your life for a reason, sometimes for a season.  You  came into my life for one of the most glorious seasons I have ever spent with a group of people.  Thank you, thank you, thank you!  XXX

I am now in Sydney, a lot closer to my children and ready to begin another chapter in my life.  Today is the Lunar Eclipse and a full moon, how apt that this is my first day in my very new space.  Sydney is the city where I grew up, a city that has a pulse, that is alive, a city that I am seeing through very different eyes again and I am totally excited about what the future holds for me and my children.  I have had a blessed, blessed four months in Byron Bay; I have made some beautiful friends that I will always cherish.  The start of my journey at Vipassana was most certainly the most profound and those teachings from Goenka have never left me.  I fully understand now what it is to be in the flow, like nature.  This is how I chose to live my life. 

Life is forever changing, minute by minute, moment by moment.  To remain detached is to be in flow, and this I now understand.  I trust the universe and its plan.  Trusting that going with the flow of life, letting life flow through me is what I hadn’t been doing and life was a struggle.   By letting go and understanding that the right people come into your life at exactly the right time and people leave your life at exactly the right time because it is necessary has only really made sense because that is what I have experienced.  

This is a time for deep letting go.  The old must die for the new to arrive and that is the law of nature, the law of the universe.  Transformation comes, like death, in its own time.  And like death, it takes you from one dimension to another.  I have made my life so difficult with not accepting what is.  If it didn’t suit me, life was just a big struggle; I would resist and try to control everything so it would work out the way I wanted it to.  Handing my life over and trusting in the flow I now know always leads me to exactly the right place, at exactly the right time, in an effortless joyful way.   This is freedom.  This to me is loving the mystery of life; watching excitedly, lovingly and with wonder, as life unfolds before me. 

Going with the Flow – Osho

When I say ‘become water’ I mean become a flow; don’t remain stagnant.  Move, and move like water.  Lao Tzu says: The way of the Tao is a watercourse way.  It moves like water.  What is the movement of water or of a river?  The movement has a few beautiful things about it.  One, it always moves towards the depth, it always searches for the lowest ground. It is non-ambitious; it never hankers to be the first, it wants to be the last.  Remember, Jesus says: Those who are the last here will be the first in my kingdom of God.  He is talking about the watercourse way of Tao – not mentioning it, but talking about it. Be the last, be non-ambitious.  Ambition means going uphill.  Water goes down, it searches for the lowest ground, it wants to be a nonentity.  It does not want to declare itself unique, exceptional, extraordinary.  It has no ego idea.

Master the art of being passive and receptive without being dull or sleepy.  Be available to the currents of life.  Every moment in life we have a choice whether to enter life’s waters and float, or to try to swim upstream. Trust that life will support you in your relaxation and take you exactly where it wants you to go.  Allow this feeling of trust and relaxation to grow more and more; everything is happening exactly as it should.

Blessings and Love to All.

Justine xx

I recently experienced didgeridoo healing with my beautiful friend David, a healer and amazingly gifted soul from Byron Bay.  Although Didgeridoo healing did not originate from the Aboriginal culture, it has been used as sound therapy by healers to benefit our physical, emotional and spiritual components.  Musician and didgeridoo “blower” Joseph Carringer, who has carved out a niche for himself in the holistic healing community as a sound therapist, says the therapeutic sound wave effects from the didgeridoo are comparative to therapeutic ultrasound therapy used to treat chronic pain conditions.  Another healer, dubbed the “Didgeridoo Medicine Man”, Phil Jones, uses the didgeridoo as a dowsing rod, whereby he focuses on the spiritual core of his clients.  He primarily works on balancing and unblocking the chakra centers, particularly that of the heart. 

The focus of my healing with David was opening of my heart and honouring my womanly essence.  To start the process the room was prepared to clear the energy using the vibration from the Didgeridoo, this created a clear and sacred space for the healing to commence.   David then opened my meridians, called in his and my spirit guides and then beautifully the stage was set for the didgeridoo to weave its magic. 

The experience was deeply touching, hypnotic, primordial, earthly, expansive, haunting and powerful.  I felt the energy surging through my body in particular when David was working on my heart chakra, this felt incredibly expansive and connecting.  My body was in such a deep state of relaxation I could barely move,  I felt peaceful, content and still, so loved and nurtured, as if to be embraced and seen as the beautiful woman I am for the very first time.  I have never experienced that type of honouring as a woman in my life and I now know what that truly feels like, from the inside. 

I am still integrating the experience, being very gentle with myself and staying peaceful and quite.  I shall keep you posted on what transpires over the coming days.

I highly recommend this experience to anyone who wants to clear blockages, feel connected, to heal and open their hearts.  It’s truly magic.

I am so blessed to have met David, he is a soul brother, a kindred spirit, a friend and I feel deeply blessed to have attracted him into my life.  An interview with him is in the pipeline so watch this space : )

If you are interested in experiencing this uniquely powerful healing and you live in Byron Bay or would like to visit here and meet with David, please contact me for details.  David has used his Didgeridoo to connect with the Whales on his sailing trips.  If you are interested in coming sailing in Hervey Bay September/August, let me know, I believe there are only but a few spots left : )  

Blessings and much love to you David – you are a gift.

Your Soul Sister … Jay xx

I have been following Karen Bishop’s Wings Posts for around 3 years now and I have learnt so much about myself and others through her amazingly accurate insights.  In her final post she much sums up exactly where I am at right now, and incredibly yet again, we are in sync.  Enjoy her last post.  We are moving into a very different world – enjoy the journey my friends and stay centered.  Love Justine xx

At the beginning of May, I left the old shell of an old self behind. Like a massive death and final ending, my time was up and everything that went along with it was gone as well. As my star family continued to tell me, “Your time is over now. You have finished what you came to do, and it is time to come home.”

As with all endings, so many of the doors around us close, never to open again. Backs are turned, spaces will not open, and there is nowhere left to go. In these ways, we become virtually invisible, as we are no longer residing in the dimension we are about to leave. It was indeed time for me to jump into the dimension above me, and to have a very different existence than I had experienced up until then.

Many of my writings explain how we get “kicked out” when we no longer belong in our old spaces. These old spaces become so unbearable that we can no longer tolerate their energies. In this way, we are shut out and encouraged to leave by the very unpleasant behavior of the energies who are still residing there.

For some of us, our next dimensional leap is into the energies and reality of the heart. In this way, if we find ourselves around anything that does not emit the heart energy, we can become acutely uncomfortable and feel lost, not at home, wounded, abused, and at best, be unable to communicate or connect to anything that does not come from a heart connection.

Putting on a “suit of amor,” a tough exterior, or even utilizing deliberate “protections” in order to survive in the world does not work with the heart energy, and for me, has never and will never be an option. I came here to experience this planet as the soul that I am, and I intend to continue to do just that.

My time for writing the WINGS posts and e-books was over about two years ago, but I was asked, like many of you, to continue on for a while until the direction of the planet and the path was permanently set. In this way, I continued on longer than I had ever intended, and even came back at the end for this purpose. I will not be returning again. I no longer reside where I used to reside, and I am permanently finished with my prior role and all it entailed. As we have now chosen as a planet to arrive in a new world in a way that perhaps we had not envisioned, I will also then, no longer be offering Soul Celebrations or creating Angels Rest. I have been cut loose in all ways.

In Creating the New Reality, there is an explanation about soul infusion and what it feels like to be embodying a form with your soul when you have evolved beyond it. Very simply, we are not all there anymore. By following our hearts, we will automatically be taken to our next “form.” So although we may at times feel we have experienced a very permanent death, because we are experiencing ascension times, we frequently have the option of dying, but can take our forms along with us. When our souls arrive in their new space, they come alive once again.

I did indeed have a death experience with all the bells and whistles, a life review, a final farewell, and a permanent end. One of my exit points was triggered. After the beginning stages of the process began to snowball, I found myself at a specific stage where I chose to keep my form here on earth in the heart energy, as the heart survives all death. My star family has offered me 24/7 access to home, encouraged me to visit often, and told me that I am welcome to come and go as I please. Currently, I am having a very needed time out for rejuvenation and for learning some new things for my new space here on the planet, and trusting that my needs will be met during this time.

As soon as I knew with absolute certainty that I would never again write another WINGS post, I cancelled all the subscriptions for regular automatic payments, as I did not feel comfortable accepting money for something I was no longer offering. This is why some of you received a PayPal cancellation notice. If I have missed any of you with regular subscriptions, kindly go into the history section of your PayPal account and cancel your subscription. If you have any problems, feel free to contact me, and I will take care of this for you. For all of you who donated on a regular basis, even though I thanked you each and every time, I thank you again now…I cannot thank you enough for keeping me up and going. And for those of you who sent me wonderful letters of gratitude, I thank you as well. They were fuel for my soul each and every time.

In times to come, my new space at TheHeartoftheNight.com will be available for those who desire to experience the heart energy, although the web site is nowhere near completion or even in its beginning stages at this time….I am still in “protective custody” for a while longer completing my process. In this new space of The Heart of the Night, there is no agenda, no intent, no purpose, no teaching, and no “New Age” energy or higher level information. It is a space of center and calm, and full of the heart of the ordinary and pristine moments that are available to us now, as we wait for our mother earth to complete her endings in all ways. It is also a space that perfectly reflects who I am as well…the pristine, subtle, and more simple energy of my true and authentic self. (For those interested, if you are on the Emerging Earth Angels e-list or choose to sign up now, you will be notified when The Heart of the Night is ready to be experienced.)

The Emerging Earth Angels web site will remain up and running for anyone who wishes to access any of the information here, or to order books and e-books, as there are still many who are now asking for their next step. Everything will remain the same as it is now, but with no new information added on a regular basis.

In the very last WINGS post for May 2 (for those of you wondering, for various reasons it was not announced via the e-list), higher level ways of living and being had not yet manifested to a large degree on the planet. Once I left my old space behind, I immediately found myself embraced by an unlikely group of human angels exhibiting all of these qualities, ways of being, and more. I would never have thought to find these angels where I did. Looking back now, I can barely remember the person I used to be. And my new space at The Heart of the Night will give me the opportunity to be in the best space with the best offerings I have yet to have experienced so far. For me, my new beginning and re-birth will be as it has been in times past…far beyond what I could have ever imagined for myself in my own mind. In the last WINGS post, there were three possible options explained to me for my choosing. In the end, I chose all three… What will you choose?

With much love and gratitude and a heart-felt good-bye,

Karen Bishop

Ah blessed life.  One day we are so uncertain about who and what we are, where we are heading and why we attract the things we do and then suddenly, as if the questions we have been asking for so long have finally been heard, we are presented with a gift, a gift of knowing that seems to fall upon as at just the right time, and which leads us even further into the depths of our soul, where truth and love reside.

Well this has been my experience over the last few days.  The energies of the universe have indeed been strange, and I have to admit to feeling a little left of centre.  To know that I have not been alone here has been of great comfort.  Sharing my experiences with others has been an entertaining exchange of humour and fragility, interlaced with understanding and unity.

My personal journey over this last year has been possibly the most intense period of my life.  These last two months in particular, since moving to Byron Bay, have been without a doubt the most healing and profoundly insightful.  I have isolated myself from situations and people so as to gain greater understanding of who I really am and where I indeed fit in this world.  Letting go of my past has been incredibly difficult however the more I have let go and detached, the easier it has become for me to connect with me, with who I really am at my core.

I cannot believe what has transpired over the last two months.  It truly does blow me away.  Vipassana was the start to an incredible ride.  At this 10 day silent retreat I gained so much clarity and insight, the likes of which I have never experienced.  It was so difficult yet so profound.  Attending this retreat was akin to building a base or foundation on which to build the next stages of my journey.  The unfolding of which has always been perfect, not always easy.  It is through the seemingly difficult periods that we learn so much, if we come to accept those moments and breath through them, they can deliver us the most amazing opportunities for growth and insight – staying centred in the eye of the storm is a wonderful place to be when you see it for what it is.

I am blessed to have in my life a handful for very close amazing earth angels.  They have all been sent to me to guide me along my sometimes wobbly path with loving acceptance and heartfelt understanding.  I truly wonder if I would in fact be here today if it was not for them.  My mirrors, my friends, my confidants.  

Yesterday I had a profound breakthrough which I believe has dramatically changed the direction of my life.  I finally understand why I have subconsciously sabotaged amazing opportunities that have come my way, why I have attracted certain partners into my life, and why I have not felt worthy of lasting happiness.   I will be expanding on this over the coming months so watch this space.  This has been a monumental shift, at a very deep level.  How do I know?  Because there is such a feeling of inner peace.   This is how you feel when you find the love and truth treasured within.  This is not mind work my friends, this is SOUL work.

Justine : )

What we call love is really a whole spectrum of relating.  At the most earthy level, love is sexual attraction.  Many of us remain stuck there, because our conditioning has burdened our sexuality with all kinds of expectations and repressions.  Actually the biggest ‘problem’ with sexual love is that it never lasts, oh how I know this!  It is only when we accept this fact that we can really celebrate it for what it is – welcome it when it is happening, and saying good-bye with gratitude when it is not. 

As we learn from our lessons, we can then begin to experience love that exists beyond sexuality, a love that honors the unique individuality of the other.  We then come to understand that our partner is in fact our mirror, reflecting unseen aspects of our deeper self and supporting us to become whole. This takes a total awareness and understanding of this concept.  This love is then based in freedom, not expectation or need.  It takes us to a universal love, where we experience all as ONE.

The lowest love is sex – it is physical - the highest refinement of love is compassion.  Sex is below love, compassion is above love; love is exactly in the middle.

Very few people know what love is.  Ninety-nine percent of people, unfortunately, think sexuality is love – it is not.  Sexuality is very animal; it certainly has the potential of growing into love, but it is not actual love, only a potential …

If you become aware and alert, meditative, then sex can be transformed into love.  And if your meditativeness becomes total, love can be transformed into compassion.  Sex is the seed, love is the flower, compassion is the fragrance.

Buddha defined compassion as ‘love plus meditation’.  When your love is not just a desire for the other, when your love is not only a need, when your love is a sharing, when your love is not that of a beggar but an emperor, when your love is not asking for something in return but is ready only to give – to give for the sheer joy of giving – then add meditation to it and the pure fragrance is released.  That is compassion; compassion is the highest phenomenon.

Exerpt from Osho Zen Tarot : )

The Dismantling of the Old – Karen Bishop Wings Post – 20 April 2010

As we ever so steadily progress with our new arrival into a higher vibrating space, we are “shifting into high gear,” as my star friends describe it…like a vehicle moving into overdrive, into its full capacity, and needing to accommodate a much faster moving energy.

Earthquakes, earthquakes everywhere, strange and unpredictable weather patterns, unusual moods and behaviors for many individuals, and a strange emptiness are but a few of the climates that these massive energy movements are creating. The cosmic tsunami of new and higher vibrating energy is arriving more steadily now, while at the same time, the earth is moving and adjusting as well, as she prepares herself to more fully accommodate these new energies of our very new space.

The earth moved into a new space in the cosmos within the past few months, is adjusting and aligning, and we are doing very much the same. Beginning with a substantial earthquake here and there, and progressing into many earthquakes all over the globe at the same time, we are really beginning to feel these movements now. Volcanic eruptions, climate changes, and a continual shaking beneath our feet have become the norm for now, or so it seems. It is no wonder so many of us feel a strange shakiness, unease, and overall sense of change.

When we progressed to the point where many, many earthquakes were occurring all over the globe (around the first week of April), much was dislodged and moved out of its previous space. First, the darkness moved up and out, and could be felt as anxiety, panic, depression, or even a feeling of being “spooked.” The energies then progressed into the next stage, resulting in many “endings” and many changes. As much was moved up and out and dislodged from its old groove, many manifestations resulted relating to endings, losses, and a great emptiness. We are also beginning our residency in all ways, in a new state of more light. So then, this means that things were dislodged that no longer fit us, and also means that the light brought to the forefront and revealed anything and everything that no longer fit as well. In addition, things are being “dismantled” and taken apart, only to be put back together again in new ways at a later time.

Endings to relationships, discovering what was really and truly occurring with many relationships (as the light will always reveal what is really there), more endings with careers and geographical residencies, and endings with many connections may suddenly have become the norm. At this time as well, exit points are always created for souls (human and animal) to depart, as this is as well, another severed connection or rather, a departure from an old space that no longer fits. And if experiences of endings were not there for some, at best, a feeling that we perhaps no longer knew where we belonged, a feeling of not wanting to go or do what we usually did, or even just feeling “off” for no particular reason, seemed to run rampant as well. Nothing around us may have felt right, good, normal, secure, or remotely comfortable.

When these disruptive energies began to arrive more fully, accidents, physical ailments, body pain and stiffness from stuck energy that was being hit by all this movement, sickness, chest pain, nausea, and even difficulty breathing were experienced by many. For nearly the entire month of March, we were in “busy and preparing” mode, as we readied ourselves for who knows what. At our soul levels, we knew that something was due to arrive, and we needed to be ready somehow. The “busyness” time almost seemed relentless, with no end in sight. Then, right before the new energies hit the first few days of April, we may have felt a let down, a subsiding of this “pushing and pulling us along” energy, while we experienced much of everything subsiding and coming to a halt. It was now time for the cosmic tsunami to begin. Even if we had not completed everything that we had set out to complete as we were in “preparation” mode, it did not matter, as the energies were simply doing their job of programming us, and allowing us to participate in whatever each of us felt we needed to, in order to be ready.

With all this new energy arriving, things may not be feeling as glorious as we may have imagined new and higher energy to be. But what else is new? This process of evolution has always been challenging, but what makes it perhaps worse than it needs to be is the absence of the heart energy, or of experiencing love and support from our brothers and sisters. The heart energy is what it is all about in the higher realms. Creating the New Reality talks a lot about this new energy arriving and how to work with it and accommodate it, as this is really where everything now resides and what everything is all about. All these new alignments, adjustments, and all this great movement are all related to the heart energy. We will now find that we are separating, pulling apart, and departing from things with no heart energy (or that do not match where we are), and will begin to congeal and connect more fully with those who very easily embody the heart energy. In this way, new beginnings are here and available as well. Yes, doors are closing, things are ending, losses are occurring, and separations are evident as at the same time, those things that match our heart energy are what will remain or begin to manifest anew.

This is how we navigate in the higher realms…through our hearts. Following our hearts will naturally take us to our new residencies and spaces, while departing from places that have no heart, or even where our own hearts are no longer, can only occur now, as the heart energy is running the show. People may seem to only be out for themselves right now, with no seeming awareness that we may just need to come together with open hearts in order to survive in times to come. The energy fields around many individuals may seem to say “door closed,” “gone for the day,” or even “I’m holding my breath until all this is over,” and “I don’t see you” as self-protection seems to be running rampant. Or even, “I’m taking care of myself and my space so that I can survive all these upheavals and be steady in times to come. No time for anything else right now.” (More about this further on.)

My father is currently in the hospital preparing for his departure, as he has now refused all treatments and surrendered to his process. He could hold on no longer through artificial means, as his body is not sustaining him on its own. From the very beginning, at the time of his diagnosis, it became very clear that at our soul levels, he did not want me around during this time. We made an agreement at our human levels, and I have since stayed away, honoring his request, receiving my information about his health status second-hand from estranged relatives. All has been in divine and perfect order. But I have to say, I never dreamed it would be so difficult to lose a parent. My father and I were very close our entire lives with a strong heart connection. It seems that everything suddenly reminds me of him, and I cannot go very long without the tears streaming down my face. Even though I am very aware of why and how things are occurring at the higher levels, I am still in a human body with human emotions, as I still live in a physical reality. It is hard to imagine that the unique energy that his particular soul embodied and the physical form it took, will never again walk this earth. Oh, the memories of the times we shared, how he contributed to who I am today, and the love that he gave to me while he was here. These losses make time stand still, make us step back for a while, and perhaps examine what life is really all about and what really and truly matters.

While at the bank the other day, one of the tellers asked me how I was doing and how my book was doing (we all know each other fairly well by now). Getting choked up and tearful, I told him about my father. He immediately jotted down his home number and asked me to call him if I needed to. Others who have become aware of my sadness and loss seem to stay behind a wall of separation, which includes by far the majority of the people I am now acquainted with. I have begun to wonder if the heart energy has become a rare thing, with so much pain, suffering, and futility having been experienced by so many on the planet in recent times. Have the final days of the old earth been too much for some, and shut down our hearts? And for those whose hearts remain open, do we continue to allow ourselves to be taken advantage of, stomped on, and sucked dry?

As we progress ever onward, we will indeed learn how to navigate with the heart energy. We will know to have it readily accessible to other heart energy, and to keep it closed for those who are not ready and who do not see us. Now seemingly an almost rare and extinct energy, we will always know when the heart energy is present, as we will feel it immensely. It is the wave and glue that brings everything to us and allows us to manifest almost immediately. It is what connects us if we allow it to override all else. We will come to know and see each other, heart to heart. And we will draw to ourselves what we connect to with our hearts. As our circles of connection may begin to feel as if they are getting smaller, the connections that remain for those in the higher realms are all about the heart. Yes, we will begin to bond with and come together with those who share this energy. Like the cream of the crop, it will rise to the surface and stay above and beyond what is now occurring at the lower rungs of the ascension ladder. The rattling beneath our feet, the shifting and sorting that the earth adjustments are creating, will very naturally create new connections, as all other connections will re-arrange themselves and move into new spaces that now match where each and every energy vibrates.

At times, it seems that this sifting and sorting process we have experienced for so many years has no end, as we evolve ever higher. Much will begin to fall away now, as it can no longer exist in these new and higher vibrations. As the earth changes continue on, we will experience more and more crashing, endings, and closing doors as the old prepares for its impending demise. Like dominoes of extinction, things will begin to fall very rapidly in times to come. But this is what we knew would eventually occur. We knew at some level that the process would unfold this way. We are now experiencing the end stages of “endings” in order that we may start anew.

So as we gain new strength through our new connection to the new earth, we are preparing to stand tall as we ready ourselves for bringing in the new…a very new earth that will replace the old when the time is right. In Crossing Over, a blueprint is outlined that explains how we will become self-sufficient before we come together as a whole. In this way, the plan is about being able to sustain ourselves before we connect to others. We must be individuals in a true and strong way before we create a higher vibrating whole. So then, this is now occurring in regard to many finding themselves taking charge of their spaces and making sure they are able to stand firm in times to come. But this does not mean that we cease to have heart connections during this time. We can take charge of our spaces and become strong and steady, while at the same time caring deeply about our brothers and sisters when they need our heart energy. I am not talking about saving others who have not chosen to move forward or grow and expand, but about loving each other and being there for each other through the challenging times that are now only just beginning.

Today I decided to get in my car, cat in tow, and point it in the direction of my daughter and grandchildren, on the opposite side of the United States. Planning on stopping along the way, in small and obscure towns with no agenda or plan, welcoming a new and amazing experience of seeing where there is still heart and soul present (as I know it is there, all over the place), I am looking forward to restoring my faith in humanity. With synchronistic and unplanned meetings with others, as the heart energy very naturally draws other heart energy to itself, I am looking forward to clearing my cobwebs, renewing my energy, connecting with my father in a new way after he transitions, and I hope, preparing myself for my new beginning when I arrive back home. (For those of you who are subscribers in regard to regular on-going donations, no worries, as I will continue to post the WINGS messages while away from home, just as I have always done.) This is where my heart is now taking me…to the hearts of many others out there along the way. And not coincidentally, it is also in true alignment with one of my new endeavors and offerings. If we follow our hearts, if we gravitate to what is at the core of our being and to who and what we are all about, and if we follow the trail of crumbs to a space that is full of our own hearts and that will activate the heart in others as well, we cannot go wrong.

Many of us were born for this time…for this time of massive change on the earth. And because of this truth, we will easily stand tall and firm in times to come as we usher in a very new reality.

With much love and gratitude,

Karen Bishop – www.EmergingEarthAngels.com