Justine Wilson's Blog

I received an email today from a Facebook friend who was concerned for me, asking me the question of whether I was tentatively holding onto happiness at the moment, despite all the big changes taking place in my life, and hoping I was truly happy and not treading water.

I found these questions thought provoking and was compelled to respond via this note, so thank you S for the email and your concern for my well-being, it is sincerely appreciated – and may I say you are not the first to pose these questions. I hope this can shine a light for you and all those others who have been watching my life through this medium of late, if you care. Perhaps it may shine a light on your journey : )

The last 6 months of my life have been somewhat topsy turvy, a series of events where a lot of the old ways and what I was trying to achieve in my life, had to go. I knew a lot of the old ways had to go for me to really move forward and at times it was truly difficult to do so. We get so used to certain people being a constant in our life, to behaving in certain ways that really ‘define’ who we are. I felt at times I could not move if I didn’t have these things by my side, who would I be without them, that would mean I would be alone, that would mean I have to be who I really am – am I truly ready for that? It sounded so frightening. Hiding behind my old patterns was so much easier, I had been doing it for many many years now and had gotten it down pat! It was indeed a very scary time and I felt very lost, alone, tired, afraid and useless. So yes, there have been some very dark periods however they were also very much part of the plan for my journey and my biggest lesson in all of this was that if I was truly going to embrace who I really am at my core, I would HAVE to let go of the old to allow in the new. It’s a universal law and cannot be done any other way.

My move to Byron Bay has not always made sense to me, I only knew it was a strong pull and something that I needed to do, at any cost – that’s how strong it was. I now know, since I have been here for a few days and plan to settle for a time when I return next week, that this change in direction was what I have been working toward my whole life. I certainly feel I have come home and I am at the beginning of living the life that I have always felt was inside of me. This in no way has been a running away from anything, I have often asked myself that question as this has been one of the, in fact THE hardest decisions I have had to make because it affects my children’s lives, not just mine. I know many have had their judgments about how this will affect my children and I do not feel it necessary to justify my decision to those who do not understand, nor do I feel it is anybody else’s business other than mine, their daddy’s and my two beautiful souls, Ella and Charlie. I have a knowing and understanding of where my children are at and the role I play in their lives.

So in answer to S’s email, yes I am very happy with the course my life is taking and NO I am not treading water – far from it. I have a peacefulness, a trust and a knowing that I can quite honestly say I never have felt before. I have not forgotten the journey I have taken to get here, all the people and experiences I have had along the way were all very necessary and I feel blessed. I feel at this time in our lives for all of us the energies of this planet are totally supporting those who want to create whatever they want in their lives, we are truly magical, we have just forgotten that we are. There is no need to be unhappy and stuck – it is merely a choice. What I know about that is that I wasn’t lined up with who I really am and now I am exploring that, fully – and I tell you it’s a beautiful feeling.

To those of you who have supported me in my low times, and you know who you are, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. You have all been my earth angels. I am always here for you, I feel that is part of my journey forward, being of service to others and helping them get on their way. I have done it, it was not easy, but when you come through the other side, it is liberating and I am so proud of what I have achieved. I know I have been a wonderful example of living ones dreams – my children will benefit from their mother’s courage.

These are truly exciting times for each and everyone of us. I would love to assist anyone who is trying to remember who they really are. Of all the personal development I have done in the last year, the best investment I made was $27.00 – The Vortex, by Abraham-Hicks. When you feel good, only good comes to you and everything is energy, so when you are vibrating the good stuff, only the good stuff comes back. It’s that simple – try it and you will see how powerfully this can change your life.

Love and Light my sisters and brothers. I love you all.

J XX